Here’s the part where I tell an embarrassing story about myself.
Gulp.
When I was in ninth grade I went to Chaska High School, Chaska being a town west of Minneapolis, Minnesota. At the time it was way out from the Twin Cities, and was borderline rural. Lots of cornfields and open spaces. Prince had his big Paisley Park mansion/studio in the area and we used to see if we could find it…on foot.
Before coming to the area, we had only lived in Minneapolis. Not in “the hood” or anything but I was in public school and was around lots of different kinds of people with many different backgrounds.
There were lots of kids for whom English was a new language,
kids from southeast Asia,
kids from Caucasian backgrounds and
African American kids,
Kids with hyphenated names and kids with Americanized names.
(The luckies got to have two names, while I was stuck with mine, unable to change it to Billie like I wanted.)
We were all part of an equal mix of the elementary school experience.
There was no one who was off-limits for friendship on the basis of color — the off-limits were determined by who was mean or ate boogers. Gross, but true.
When we moved out of Minneapolis, the experience was jarring and very different. Diversity was so natural that up to that point.
-Cue the embarrassing story.-
So I was in ninth grade. It was 1989. I think I was in science class. I’d been sitting there — palms sweating, heart racing, — waiting for the teacher to call my name for attendance. I knew what I wanted to do but I didn’t know if I’d be able to make myself do it. What would people say? Would they understand? Would I get in trouble?
It was Martin Luther King Jr. Day and there was no assembly.
There were no posters.
There had been no discussions, no required reports, no broadcasting of any famous speeches or reading or famous letters.
There was no marking of remembrance or respect for the life of this great man.
I didn’t care if we got a day off from school. I just wanted there to be some acknowledgement that he had made a difference, a monumental difference in the way we conducted ourselves everafter.
And there was nothing.
So I sat there, waiting for the teacher to call my name.
Then he did.
The room was silent.
I stood up. I gathered my books. I told him that I had to go, that I had to go to a birthday party for someone very important to me.
Somehow I had the idea that the holiday was chosen to mark his birthday, which was actually on January 15, 1929. The legislation that was signed into law in 1983 marked the holiday on the third Monday in January and was supposed to begin being observed by 1986. Find out more here: http://bit.ly/1jblo0n
I picked up my books, walked out the door and down the hallway until I found my locker. I put away my books and sat on the cold tile floor until it was time to go to my next class. My statement had been made.
No one walked out after me.
The teacher didn’t chase me down. There was no follow-up, no meeting with a school counselor and I got into no trouble.
I don’t remember if I went to my other classes. I must have, because I didn’t have a car and so couldn’t have left school. I only remember walking out of one class that day. I remember being scared but feeling that someone must do something to get attention on the issue. The administration should know this was important and they should be teaching about Martin Luther King Jr, even if there were no kids of color at the school — it was even more essential to teach about him so that the discrimination of the past wouldn’t continue to be the unspoken norm of the present.
Telling this story, I realize now that my actions did not result in any external changes. The only thing that happened was something in myself.
Do you have any memories specifically tied to Martin Luther King Jr.? What impact do his teachings and life have on the way you view the world?
Dawn Huso says
Did you want Billie for a first or last name? Interesting story Tanya. Thanks for sharing.
The Inkubator says
Billie for a first name…so cool. 🙂
Julie Miller says
Thank you so much for sending that note. Brovo. Don’t be embarrassed, be proud.
I grew up “on the right side of the RxR tracks”, but went to jr. high and high school (with Prince and with Art Erickson being a presence at the high school- ask your Dad about that one!:)) in “the hood”. I totally understand your culture shock when you moved. I later moved to Rochester, MN and have been there ever since. It is getting better, but …
In Jr. high we had buttons that said “T.W.C.M.I.H.”, which means, Together we can make it happen. It was about racial reconciliation and raising up those of color. It was great.
On Monday I thought perhaps I should put up the flag. I didn’t, as it was snowing pretty good and I thought that, like rain, it isn’t respectful to let it get drenched. Perhaps I should have anyway as this isn’t a day that flags typically are flown, but I think they should be. This is my embarrasing moment.
Thank you so much for sharing your journeys. Your sharing brings light in dark places.
The Inkubator says
Wow, Prince AND Art Erickson? Two different arenas but two very influential people! (I will definitely ask Dad about it.)
There are times when I think we hesitate to “fly that flag” because we don’t want to draw attention to ourselves or make other people uncomfortable. But think of the catalyst for conversation it could be! 🙂 Thank you for reading and taking the time to comment. I appreciate it! ~Blessings
Gary Downing says
WOW!!! I didn’t realize the statement you made was so profound – and scary!! Way to go -even if it didn’t look like anyone followed at the time!!
Julia Bloom says
Good for you! You didn’t see any external changes, but there’s no way to know what went on in the minds of other students, maybe even your teacher. Maybe some weakly-held beliefs were strengthened. Maybe some long-held prejudices were challenged. Maybe someone asked a question that hadn’t occurred to them before.
My 10yo daughter has always refused to recite the pledge of allegiance at school. She bases this on her belief that her allegiance should be to God and every person (not just Americans), and if (when!) her country is in the wrong, she cannot pledge her loyalty there. This isn’t civil disobedience, it’s actually just exercising her right to not recite the pledge, but I so admire her courage, as she is usually the only person in the crowd remaining silent, and she does get asked about it.
(And this is definitely one way that MLK’s teachings & life have impacted my family’s worldview – we have these kinds of conversations at home at least in part because of his example.)